How i feel sometimes

[drhines]

Sometimes I wanna say how I really f*kn’ feel
Should I say what I want, and keep it on the real
All this pain I have, is eating me alive
All the is pain I have, is keeping me deprived
The lord knows I try hard to live a good life
The lord knows I really love my wife
But I don’t know how much more of this crap I can take
My own f*kn’ family is showing me no love
So I pray to the god, the one up above
I sit and think, wondering what’s in store for me
I try to see really, but its not happening for me
And every time something good happens
Someone or something makes my mood change
Its like I can never be happy, and never be sad
All I want is a happy life
My family and wife, without no strife
You know, what every nigga wants that’s all I need
But I don’t know how much more of this crap I can take
I try to make it right, but these niggas wanna fight
I try to do it wrong, and yet I still sing the same song.
Throughout my life I’ve needed my mother,
But she was hardly there
When I needed the woman who gave me birth,
She put that nigga before me first
Should I be mad, or maybe sad
How should I feel, is this f*kn’ real
And now I got a baby, that’s making me crazy
Not crazy-crazy, but crazy in love
Its like besides my wife, the baby is the best thing in my life
And that’s cause she hasn’t even been born yet
So now you see the pain I feel, deep in my heart oh so real
So what should a nigga do, I wonder
Should I steal, should I kill, should I just try to keep it real
Where is my guidance, where is my mentor
Who is counseling me
Why do I feel alone
So maybe now that I let off some steam
I will feel a little better and even maybe happier
Cause I don't know how much more of this crap I can take

[admin]

damn dude, i didnt know you could write like that.  its good. reallu good.

--Sal-

[gb_cmt]

Its good to know that I aint the only one  that rage has in a bunch.  Its nice to know I can let it out without some one thinking I'm a freak.

I known pain cinse I was small
but a dad I didn't know
I thought all families were like that
but guess again o little one they use to say
for with no father you should be
I cryed and cryed till my eyes run dry
Then again this men I met who my father said he was
and I thank the mighty lord
for a father now I had
now sad am I to say that this strager
I met one day.
Why does he hurt me every day
with belts,cords,and the worst with painful words
But now I'm grown,
soul hard as a rock  and even dow
he can not hurt me
I feel pain...
I feel scare...
but most of all I feel in rage.
They told me ones that rage was no good
for it was rage who kill ooh so bloody
but rage and I are getting to know each other
so for all you, you sons of *****
I tell you now
I am not affraid to.....

[filter_78745]

Let it all out dude! It's good to write this stuff down. Don't you feel a little better?

[gb_cmt]

IT SO FUNKIN STUPID HOW PEOPLE ACT AROUND THEIR FRIENDS THEY HAD TO PUT SOME ONE DOWN IN ORDER FOR THEM TO FEEL GOOD ABOUT THEMSELFS AND I HATE THAT PEOPLE THINK THAT BECAUSE I ACT NICE THEY CAN MAKEFUN OF ME BUT THEY DON'T KNOW ME OR FOR THAT MATTER WHAT I CAN WHEN I GET MAD BUT AT THE SAME TIME I DON'T WANT TO BE LIKE THAT AGAIN.
BUT IF HE SAYS SOMETHING TO ME AGAIN I AM NOT GOIN TO HOLD BACK, I f*k UP HIS PRIDE OR IN OTHER WORDS HIS CAR.

[LockyBelle]

That's life! Everyone deals with their own messed up problems, not just you, but remember, things happen for a reason. ONly God knows why, but they do.  Now your baby is on the way, that is probably going to be your eternal light, shining in your life. Count your blessings not your troubles! Nice write, very heartfelt indeed.
Belle

[Rob]

Sounds like my life , but minus the wife and the baby and the Jiggas .   [smiley=behead.gif]