wonder

[gb_cmt]

As I sit here in the dark
and tasted the steal
I wonder what it would feel...
to pull on the triger

I wonder ...
would my boold was to speal
decorating the walls of red
what would it feel
would I see the light
on the the blood glow
would I cry as I go

I wonder...
how long befor they know I'm gone
one day, one week, or a month
I don't know

I wonder...
would I be missed

I wonder...

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[admin]

dude, that is one good, but yet messed up poem.

i always wonder would come to my funeral if i were to parse right now. hmm, i want to be cremated, do they still hold funerals?

[charlesb]

I've made arraingements to be either cremated, or preferably donated to a medical school. My family has been instructed to use the insurance money to hire a good band and buy a few kegs of beer, catered BBQ and so on.

One friend of mine has promised that if a preacher ends up talking about me at the funeral, he will go up to the podium and literally kick the preacher off of the thing, right there in front of God and everybody.

I made a similar promise for a buddy of mine who died when he was 35 of a marseive heart attack. His step-father "Joe" was a complete jerk, and I am keeping in touch with "Joe", waiting for him to die so that I can piss on his grave on my buddy's behalf.

It was a promise!

I had a few despondant thoughts during my younger years, but figured out the fact that nothing stays the same for very long. If things are really great, they will tend to go downhill... If things are really bad, there's only one direction that things can go, so if you just wait around it always gets better again.

charlesb

[admin]

i guess if i were to be donated to a medical school they would probably use me to show the effect of eating fast foods everyday. sure, right now i am very very thing, but it will eventually catch up to me. And i am sure i got some arteries on there way to being clogged. I will change one day.

well, when i was living Austin last summer i cut down on fast food, and stuck to barbecuing, with the occarseional spaghetti, but now that i am back down here i am back to my old eating habits of fast food.

I havent made any arrangements about my inevitable death, yet. But the plan is cremation. I remember my mom doesnt want me to do that, but (and i think this may sound bad) i dont think she will be around when i go. Hopefully, i out live my folks.

and death, well, i hope it doesnt hurt.

[gb_cmt]

there is on;y one way of finding out but they aint no tickets back

[Rob]

hey Charles.......... i know what you mean .  when you say :
" So i can piss on his grave on my buddys behalf "

I know acouple of people i would piss on there graves , but on My Behalf !